I've taken some time to evaluate my direction in life. After I finished my first degree, like so many other graduates I had to deal with a lot of things that come with graduating. No job, no money, and after so many days spent applying for jobs, no sense of purpose.
I was in a slump for 6 months, unsure what to do.
And by slump I mean depressed and crippled with anxiety.
The joke is always "What are you gonna do with that art degree?"
The truth is, you either do nothing with it, or you work hard and continue to learn. I decided to go back to school and earn my Master's of Fine Arts in Graphic Design from the Academy of Art University of San Francisco (online).
It is good to be back in school (and a better school, if I can take a jab at the Art Institute). I finished my first semester a couple of weeks ago and will start the fall semester next week. I learned so much in my first semester, and I didn't have classes where I really have had to design anything (yet). I'm looking forward to seeing what this school has to teach me.
Meanwhile, June through this past week I had an internship with an RPO company. I really enjoyed it. I learned a lot, made some friends, gained valuable experience to put on my resume, and enjoyed a lot of free lunches on alternating Wednesdays and Fridays.
Now that it is over, it is back to looking for some work. Part time would be fine.
What sucks about depression (well, there are so many things that suck about depression), is that is saps up all of your energy to do anything. I didn't want to clean, to go out, to eat, to draw or read or do anything that I enjoyed. At one point I didn't even want to live.
After deciding to go back to school and willing myself to try for this internship, I have healed and I am in a better mental and physical state. I have slowly come to find my creative side again through drawing and writing. I am even back to doing things that I haven't done since I started college.
I have been eating better too, removing carb loaded things from my diet. Meals have been planned for each week, and they are not difficult to make. I have made so many delicious things that are mostly just meat and veggies, and I feel a lot better about my health.
I also got my drivers license a few months ago. Finally, at age 21/22, this is the year I finally got it. I wouldn't say that I am scared of driving, but if I don't have to go anywhere, I'm not driving. Still, it is nice not having to depend on anyone or anything to take me places.
There are only 4 months left in 2015. It started out pretty bad, but I have made the past three months count, and I want the remaining months to be awesome. I am going to visit my mom and sister next week. My sister is pregnant and I am going to be an aunt next year! This October, my Australian penpal and her boyfriend are coming to stay with me for 2 weeks. They will be here during Halloween and we are planning on going to Disney World and Universal Studios. I am so very excited for that.
I won't dwell on the fact that no one really reads this blog of mine, or that I haven't updated it in a while. I want to keep it. It is important to me, and a great way to remember the good and bad. I will be making much more fun posts in the future.
P.S. I finally got a denim jacket!